Last updated on June 16th, 2021 at 11:47 pm

Oops, I did it again.

I allowed the busyness of life get me out of my regularly scheduled program. I got caught up in mindlessly scrolling on social media, panicking about the unknowns, getting sidetracked from the passions that bring me joy, all in the name of an allegorical rat race.

It’s crazy, because I preach mental wellness and the importance of checking in with yourself. The importance of making time for what brings you joy. The importance of taking breaks and coming home to yourself. But here I am falling victim to that same thing.

Okay maybe not victim, because I know better.

But I find myself in these cycles of productivity where I’m focusing on my spirituality—using crystals, reiki, and prayer. I’m thriving in work. I’m taking a step back from social media. I’m resting when I’m tired, but somewhere along the way… I slip. And in a sense fail.

I always know what I have to do to get back “healthy” but I don’t catch it right away. Then I beat myself up for crashing from burnout.

Who else has been there?

I guess what I’m trying to say is—most people aren’t seamless in everything they do. Whether it’s keeping a strict workout/health regime. Or consistently posting on social media to build your brand. Or perfecting a craft. And it’s time to stop feeling so.damn.guilty.about.it.

I also think we need to use the term “starting over again” sparingly. You’re not always starting over again, sometimes it’s picking back up where you left off and that’s what breeds success.

Let’s be honest, life throws you different curves balls, and it’s not always feasible to slap a positivity bandage over it and move forward like nothing happened.

People have highs and lows.

You just have to do what you can do to get by, until you find the inner strength to get back to where you were. At least that’s what I try to, and by doing so I give myself compassion and grace.

We all deserve that sh**.